Saturday, January 24, 2009

Last night....

I can tell you that last night was the WORST night that I have experienced in my life. For the last 9 months, Drew has been with me 24/7. I have known of his every move...all night and day. And last night I had to leave him! I can not explain the emotions that I experienced. Driving away from the hospital without my baby was extremely upsetting. I have decided that they need to have a special "discharge class" for parents of babies that aren't going home. It's nice when you're taking your baby home to hear about bathing, eating, sleeping, etc. But when your baby is going to be spending the next however-many days in the NICU, you need to hear a different type of advice...how to deal with the emotions of leaving without your little one. We had been all ready to be discharged. Had the room packed up, the flowers in the car, the car seat ready to go...and then we had to put the car seat back in the car EMPTY. Lots of emotions there! Just a thought, but it would be nice to hear how to deal with all of those emotions.

2 comments:

Holly said...

That is one I can't imagine! I hate that you had to experience that! Thankfully he won't remember :)

Matt, Clare & Peyton said...

Dana, I know that feeling...I was sooooo seriously distraught when they told me I wouldn't be able to take Peyton home! But in my case, I knew their reasoning was stupid and we got them to let us take her anyway...but oh man I know the feeling you are talking about and it is gut-wrenching!